Thursday, December 29, 2011

Lord, You're Already There

Well, I'm home for Christmas break and there has been a lot happening with me since I've been home.  I've been staying extremely busy!!! (but I'm ok with that ;)  I have had a lot of time to do some deep thinking as well, and I don't really know where to begin...
I've finished my first semester of college and passed all of my classes!!!!!!! I give all the glory to God for giving me the strength to make it through!  I could not have done it with out Him.  Although this semester went smoothly (for the most part) I'm struggling with which way to turn.  I've been thinking and praying and seeking counsel from others about my next step in life.  I'm just not having a totally, 100% feeling about where I'm at right now.  I have been struggling with finding that feeling inside of me where I can know for sure that I'm where God wants me to be.  I'm not having that feeling where I can feel God behind me in each step. I do realize tho that if this was not where God wants me to be then He would make it clear to me.  So that gives me a little bit of peace on that :)
I've also been struggling a lot with having full contentment with my life.  I'm finding myself being extremely jealous lately in many different areas.  I see the live's that my friends are living and I just wish that I could have a portion of what they have, but then God always reminds me that I have a loving family who truly cares for me and is doing what they can to support me.

As this New Year roles around many people make a New Year's Resolution... I have never been someone who ever really made a resolution, but this has been a year of many changes for me and Experiencing new things so I figured I'd give it a shot :)  This may sound corny to some people, but I've never been someone who has EVER been faithful in being involved in one-on-one daily devotion/quiet time with God.  I always have told myself that once I got to college and was on my own that it would be easier.... but it's NOT!!! I have a new "devotional study book" that I'm hoping that it will help me out, but I also am going to try to get an accountability partner to help me this.... I tried this a few years ago and it lasted for a while only because I hated to have to admit that I didn't do it.  But even then I was only doing it because I "had" to.  Please pray with me that I will find a TOTAL satisfaction in God and have a longing desire to spend time with Him each and every day and searching and finding things to help me learn and grow from

This post seems like just a random mix of things but it's just what I've been thinking this week :)

From where You're standing
Lord, You see a grand design
That You imagined
When You breathed me into life
And all the chaos
Comes together in Your hands
Like a masterpiece
Of Your picture perfect plan
When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
Cause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there

One day I'll stand before You
And look back on the life I've lived
I can't wait to enjoy the view
And see how all the pieces fit

~Casting Crown's "Already There"


  1. Its funny, good that you posted this today cuz I was thinking about that today. Not about making a resolution, but just that I found myself praying several times today to give me a desire to get into His Word, to love Him enough that my greatest desire is to get to know Him. I will be praying with you as we both strive for this :)

  2. Thanks girl! Praying for you as well!